welcome.

welcome to the darker side of my head.

this is where dreams come to die,
pain streches its bloody hands,
where my soul gives up.

do not expect a warm welcome.

current texts:


you seem lost | 15 Jul 2023, ~02h local | neutral tone -- 'welcome' rotting walls | 16 Jul 2023, ~23h local | family problems, bad feels apologetic existence | 16 Jul 2023, ~23h local | insecurity, pain, repetitive what's the point? | 16 Jul 2023, ~23h local | meta, self-referencing hi | 17 Jul 2023, ~00h local | hi ephemeral emotion | 17 Jul 2023, ~03h local | rambling i want out | 19 Jul 2023, ~11h local | vent, family, shit happening now crumpled body | 19 Jul 2023, ~15h local | physical+mental unwell, vent thought on sound and noises | 20 Jul 2023, ~12h local | rambling what if | 20 Jul 2023, ~12h local | anxiety, panic, repetitive this path hurts to walk | 22 Jul 2023, ~00h local | pain, hurting july 29th | 29 Jul 2023, ~13h local | rambling, thought dumping anxiety anxiety anxiety | 31 Jul 2023, ~20h local | (physically/mentally) unwell someone help me | 31 Jul 2023, ~23h local | venting, unwell We're lost and hurting | 14 Sep 2023, ~23h local | by Marth, braindump please help me | 14 Sep 2023, ~23h local | celpost, sad, hurt disconnected tissue | 07 Nov 2023, ~14h local | rambling, hypothetical absent and confused | 11 Nov 2023, ~19h local | rambling, bad feeling i wish | 21 Nov 2023, ~15h local | hurtful, toxic mixed sorrow | 21 Nov 2023, ~18h local | rambling, unwell found but still missing | 04 Dec 2023, ~20h local | despair, pain im sorry | 09 Dec 2023, ~13h local | please forgive me stuck, hurting and rotting | 13 Dec 2023, ~23h local | pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain this house reeks of you | 16 Dec 2023, ~19h local | vent, tired of this dynamic wiltering but still pushing | 20 Dec 2023, ~15h local | it all feels numb please help? | 22 Dec 2023, ~15h local | exhausted, everything hurts, ment. of sui AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA | 22 Dec 2023, ~17h local | AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i envy | 23 Dec 2023, ~20h local | i dont know i dont know i dont know dec 24th | 24 Dec 2023, ~15h local | nightmare nightmare nightmare nightmare i love you, i hate you | 30 Dec 2023, ~10h local | unequal feelings, pain does it matter anymore | 30 Dec 2023, ~19h local | make this all stop poison | 03 Jan 2024, ~20h local | no way out homesick | 05 Jan 2024, ~19h local | idk, ment of sui. i just want a hug | 05 Jan 2024, ~22h local | pleading, aching pins and thorns | 09 Jan 2024, ~15h local | fuck you, fuck this, fuck everything broken broken broken | 10 Jan 2024, ~19h local | stupid, useless and unloveable i want to be soft again | 10 Jan 2024, ~21h local | yearning, pain Hold me gently | 29 Jan 2024, ~21h local | mental health, changes, neutral, ment. of family ready to give up | 06 Feb 2024, ~20h local | pain, drowning rambling | 06 Feb 2024, ~20h local | --- headed to nowhere | 07 Feb 2024, ~11h local | ???, does it matter? would you remember me? | 08 Feb 2024, ~04h local | silent crying eternally lonely, slowly fading | 12 Feb 2024, ~01h local | angst, hurting the sun always shines | 13 Feb 2024, ~17h local | hope, tired but pushing too hostile for life | 15 Feb 2024, ~02h local | emotional pain, numb all the same, hurting | 21 Feb 2024, ~20h local | does it matter if i cw? daydreaming away | 22 Feb 2024, ~04h local | my head rings, thoughts escape existence around me | 23 Feb 2024, ~19h local | meta, ment. of sui please hug me kind and tight | 24 Feb 2024, ~05h local | crying into the void, hurting no-context answer | 24 Feb 2024, ~05h local | idk why i do this vent | 26 Feb 2024, ~00h local | wallowing in self-pity, miserable plastic love | 03 Mar 2024, ~22h local | disconnected, abstract living in my shadow | 05 Mar 2024, ~02h local | idk my head is numb | 05 Mar 2024, ~11h local | fuck everything, tired thoughts | 16 Mar 2024, ~13h local | not much inside why do i try | 14 May 2024, ~21h local | do cw's matter? did they ever? plasatic pain | 18 May 2024, ~02h local | disconnection, isolated, abstraction of self would you still care | 12 Jul 2024, ~19h local | floaty head, pain thoughts please spare me | 12 Jul 2024, ~19h local | all i feel is pain and numb august 8th | 08 Aug 2024, ~15h local | journal, real talk, idk death and torture | 20 Oct 2024, ~01h local | ideations of rape, death. extreme wishes forgotten | 20 Oct 2024, ~02h local | just leave already who cares who cares who cares who cares who cares who cares | 20 Oct 2024, ~03h local | stupid, useless and unloveable once again never made for | 08 Nov 2024, ~06h local | daymare, delusion, pain rotting ship | 02 Dec 2024, ~18h local | pain cold numb