what if. 

what if things go wrong. 

what if evyerthing fails,
what if there’s something unplanned for,
what if the plans stop dead in their tracks,
what if the job fails and i can find another one,
what if the move is for some reason halted or unsuccessful,
what if “mom” takes drastic action and fucks shit over,
what if. things just go fucking haywire and it all breaks.

what if.  

what if.  things don’t go according to plan.

what if.  i fail, stumble and mess the plan up.

...

and i would love to say. what if everything goes right,
what if the plan works out.
what if no plan b is necessary.
what if the move is successful– even if we have to struggle.\

  what if. what if. what if. what if.

what if she goes apeshit over the car. 

what if she decides i can keep the car. 

what if. what if.