im just.. tired, you know?
scared, exhausted, wanting to cry and very tired– moody, confused, overwhelmed and overstimulated but.. 

i am alive, and.. i wish i could have someone hold me close and tell me it’ll be okay, i wish
..
just feel the warmth of someone that can care for me a little bit, not by obligation or pressure but simply because they care?  is that too much to ask for?

i hate struggling to read and accept the love that i’m given, and i miss it so much, but i also can’t give love back and thus refuse it all– if i can’t give love back then why should i be worthy of being loved?

i’m.  tired, pained and lonely in my head 

.. i hope i’ll be fine

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